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Dana Leigh Lyons's avatar

Heart-sourced recognition for your courage in looking at the past, acknowledging what’s there, and embracing accountability and responsibility. Thank you for sharing and inspiring, Maria!

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Maria Luz O'Rourke's avatar

You are welcome Dana! You are a kind and generous editor 🙏🏽💗

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Dana Leigh Lyons's avatar

💗

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Lyns McCracken's avatar

Holy smokes, Maria, I think I almost spit out my drink when you threw in “RACI.” By far the scariest concept in this post lol.

In all seriousness, I resonated so hard of course. I got totally shitfaced the night before my half marathon and the hangover didn’t even phase me. That was just how I trained back then. 10+ drinks the night before a run was a good day. And I related very much to the tantrum. Luckily I don’t remember most of mine but I’ve heard the stories and I’m sure everyone else does 🤦🏻‍♀️. I love how you broke down your astrology training and finding out your life path. That makes so much sense. I never thought about it that way before, but i see the value of working your way back and starting at the beginning before you can truly determine your path. Thank you for this insight. I’m so glad you’re here and sober and I’m so glad to know you. 😊

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Maria Luz O'Rourke's avatar

🤣 I can only hope that someday my brain will erase all the time spent debating whose name went where on RACI charts. Scary indeed!

Yeah I should have said 10 drinks was an estimate. At that point, alcohol was always in my body.

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Dan Wiley's avatar

You had me at “neon, cerulean blue.” What a great visual to contrast the disquiet. Wonderful story thank you for writing it, Maria!

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Maria Luz O'Rourke's avatar

Thank you for reading it and for your comment, Dan!

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Rob Walling's avatar

“Sober, I could no longer deny that my productivity lacked personal meaning and was an insult to my authenticity.” This particularly resonated with me Maria. I am still struggling with it 19 months in. Thanks for sharing.

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